flea

Am ensconced in luxury inn in the country.

No, really.

The above is the actual text of an LJ post I made in my hilarious dream last night. In the dream, I did in fact run off with a famous actor, who was sort of a composite of real actors - he looked rather like Jude Law, but was only in his later 20s, and was of the fame level of a Brad Pitt or Tom Cruise. I (I didn't have a husband or children in the dream) remember a scene lying on a blanket as if at a picnic and talking about his fame and beauty (the former was wearying him and he was oblivious to the latter); holding his hand; and then going to this country inn, where he was staying while shooting a film. I posted the above note to LJ to let my friends know what was going on. He went out to shoot scenes all day, and I was doing something related to the film, too, but we met up back at our room, and went into the communal bathroom (Matt The Bruins Fan was in there) to get ready for bed. And then I woke up before I got to have any devastatingly handsome celebrity dream sex. It's always that way with me; I've had two dreams featuring Russell Crowe where we've held hands and discussed our children.

Casper generally wakes up about 2 am from a bad dream, the heat banging during a phase of light sleep, or both, or nothing. I wake as soon as she calls out (often 3/4 asleep) and lie in bed listening; I go to her if she can't settle herself and really starts in to cry (most of the time) or listen to her cry out every 5 minutes for half an hour until she quiets (tonight). What she says when she cries out, or when I ask her if she had a bad dream, tells me what her dreams are about: "It's MY chair, not your chair!" "A girl took something away from me." "Daddy said 'no'." The daily traumas of the 2 year old to be worked through in sleep.

I have been awake for an hour, or two or three, between 2 and 5 more nights than not. If Casper didn't wake I think I'd be able to sleep, but her light sleep phase coincides with mine, and once I settle her or she quiets I am just awake. Tired as all get out, but unable to sleep.

Work is eating me, starting with my bottom. Feast or famine. I'll talk to the student tomorrow about adding some hours to his schedule.