Life too hard, send help

[flea]

Horrible horrible night. As expected, our baby is not one of those babies who see 10 minutes of the cry it out method and then sleep all night. No, she is one of those babies who cry for an hour and a half, twice, and also randomly every twenty minutes for the rest of the night. I have a headache from gritting my teeth all night, despite earplugs, and the baby looks horrible this morning, as if she'd cried all night. Oh, wait, she had. And all she wanted to do was cling to me and I had to go to work and she cried more and I feel so abusive and like she's got Stockholm Syndrome.

My father is being a shit, and I think he is going to try and sell grandmother's house out from under us because he thinks it is a bad idea for us to buy it. Because he thinks he is the smartest person in the world. Little shit.

My aunt, and namesake, has had a recurrance and general metastasis of her cancer and is expected to live 6 months. I need to write to her, but what to say? "Hello, so sorry to hear you are dying."

Never mind the riddle of the nanny taxes.

Fuck, fuck, fuck.

Comments

[jesseh.livejournal.com]

God forbid you should be able to deal with one thing at a time, huh? Sorry.

One time I was babysitting for a nine month old who cried the entire time, no matter what I did. It was horrible. So, although not a parent, I can empathize. AND the baby is now a grown woman, or at least in college, and has turned out just fine.

[cindyamb.livejournal.com]

This is the overwhelming bit of new parenthood (well, regular old parenthood too, but it's most disconcerting when you're a newbie). The other challenges and problems have no respect for your complete lifestyle change. So-important-and-noisy-about-it-person doesn't give a shit what's going on in your life. And your life seldom seems to cut you the kind of slack you need to get used to So-important-and-noisy-about-it-person.

You call the bank about your statement? The baby cries. You call the utility company about a bill? The baby cries. You get a call from your best friend, in tears over her honestly serious problem? The baby cries. You're so tired you want to drop? The baby cries. All. Freaking. Night.

It is wonderful, don't get me wrong, but it's really hard and it's too bad you can't spend the first year in seclusion from the world and all its demands, except for when you choose to venture out.