Life too hard, send help

Horrible horrible night. As expected, our baby is not one of those babies who see 10 minutes of the cry it out method and then sleep all night. No, she is one of those babies who cry for an hour and a half, twice, and also randomly every twenty minutes for the rest of the night. I have a headache from gritting my teeth all night, despite earplugs, and the baby looks horrible this morning, as if she'd cried all night. Oh, wait, she had. And all she wanted to do was cling to me and I had to go to work and she cried more and I feel so abusive and like she's got Stockholm Syndrome.

My father is being a shit, and I think he is going to try and sell grandmother's house out from under us because he thinks it is a bad idea for us to buy it. Because he thinks he is the smartest person in the world. Little shit.

My aunt, and namesake, has had a recurrance and general metastasis of her cancer and is expected to live 6 months. I need to write to her, but what to say? "Hello, so sorry to hear you are dying."

Never mind the riddle of the nanny taxes.

Fuck, fuck, fuck.